This week has been terrible.
Came home late everyday because of classes and FSD training.
Tiring.
I've been battling with my thoughts for a while now.
Still haven't figured out.
And because of that, I think, I feel so angry all the time.
Just so angry.
And I'm not like that.
It takes a lot to make me angry as I am a patient and peace-loving person.
And so I lower my head, minimised my ego, practice modesty.
I believed to survive in this world full of egoistic maniacs like ______, you just need to have an ego yourself or people will step over you.
Things have made me realise this is not true.
Everywhere you go, just make friends.
Then you won't have any enemies.
I lower my head not for you to step over it, bitches and bastards.
So,
Enjoy your damn life and die soon.
Trying hard to reach out for something/someone but you're not quite there yet.
And everyday, you're getting further and further away from it/him/her.
And someone else comes along.
He/ She walks up slowly to that something/someone you desire so much.
And simply grabs it/him/her and takes it/him/her away from you.
And now its/he's/she's no longer there, for you to call yours.
Its too bitter to accept the facts.
That many things are beyond our control or reach.
A heart hard as stone is what I need.
So that I can feel nothing when it/he/she goes.
Morning minions.
Its not morning.
Anyway, I think I'm really going to give this blog of mine life back.
So start with the Sec 3 camp.
Came to school with quite a small bag after I saw some people who brought like HUGE bags.
Looked like they were going overseas. Byeee.
Haha.
So walked there for like 3 hours.
Hot, tired, but with FRIENDS, anything can be completed.
E4 in Alpha with A1 and E8.
Instructor Kaz hyper/crazy/funny.
Eh what's that?
What?
Hahahaha CHOP!
Reached there, kayaking was first.
With Jasmine, noisy lah.
Splashed water here and there, even at the instructor.
Yeah funny.
Awesome experience though tired.
Shower.
Toilets were extremely disgusting.
Sang campfire songs.
I caught a little babeh BUMBLEBEE.
Slept at 1? Impossible to sleep w/ aeroplanes flying over every 5 mins or so.
And people talking in their sleep.
Suddenly,
"I don't understand!"
haha
Abseiling, Rock climbing, Low and High elements, Zip line and a climb-up-a-pole-and jump- thing.
First two was too short.
Low was okay. High was too short.
Zip line weeeeee.
The last one was just painful.
OUCH MY _____!
Campfire.
Had difficulty gathering the class together but managed to pull it off eventually.
A1 did stomp, A2 sang some children's songs, A3 sang, E4 sang,dance,cheered(AWESOME!), E5 mix of songs, a bit of acoustic and barbie girls(FUNNY!), E6 idk, E7 skit, E8 Geography song(Unoriginal).
Class bonded.
And I take everything I saidabout Mdm Sumrah.
Shes like sucha motherly figure who brought COKE and chips for us to share after the campfire.
Slept at 3 for reasons.
Frustrated.
Woke up.
Still frustrated.
Huda can see through anything I tell you. Haha.
So like okay already.
Clean dorms.
Like so lucky never get toilets.
Listened to people who can play the guitar, play the guitar.
Camp's full of problems.
Bus ride home took 12mins 30secs.
17 hour sleep till next day.
Here.
Hi.
Tmr's school.
Half looking foward, half dreading.
Byeeeee.